Chapter 339
Jacob felt no disappointment at her words–if anything, he seemed thrilled.
“That’s great, Mom! Take your time thinking it over. I’m not in any rush–you can take as long as you need, I’m always free!” he said eagerly.
Jessica hadn’t said no. That was all that mattered to Jacob.
His pure joy only made Jessica’s feelings more complicated. She stayed quiet momentarily before saying, “I’ll give you an answer soon.* “Then I’ll head home and wait for your response!” Jacob’s happiness didn’t fade one bit. Even his steps were light as he left.
“Jacob hasn’t been this happy in a long time,” Brian said suddenly, coming out after finishing the dishes.
Jessica turned away, her voice flat. “What’s that got to do with me? You can leave now. I don’t like having strangers in my house.”
The word “strangers” hit Brian like a punch to the chest. But he didn’t argue with Jessica. He just nodded and left as she wanted.
Jessica watched his retreating figure, shoulders slightly hunched with defeat.
She couldn’t help questioning herself. “Am I wrong? No, I’m not wrong. Brian’s the one who made the mistake–he’s the one who betrayed our marriage first!”
Jessica tried to steel herself, but that night brought another sleepless episode.
She lay in bed, Jacob’s excited face from earlier replaying in her mind and Brian’s words echoing endlessly.
She wondered, ‘Jacob hasn’t been that happy in so long. Was it because of me?‘
Her decision to divorce and give up custody must have crushed Jacob. He probably thought she was abandoning him altogether.
Even though he had rejected her as his mother first.
But Jacob was only six years old, and his mind was still developing. Someone had deliberately manipulated him, and maybe it was understandable that
he’d hurt her feelings.
As his mother, she should have worked harder to guide him instead of just giving up.
But she had tried. She really had.
Jessica’s thoughts drifted back through the years. Happy memories mixed with painful ones, cycling through her mind like a broken record.
She had once been so full of joy. Then Madeline appeared, and both Brian and Jacob turned their backs on her. The happiness she’d felt was matched only by the devastation that followed.
She had tried her best, but no one seemed to care. In the end, giving up felt like the only option left.
She kept telling herself this, but Jacob’s transformation haunted her. The way he’d changed from a lively, confident child to someone cautious and withdrawn stuck in her throat like a bone she couldn’t swallow.
All of this had started because of her. She wasn’t a good mother.
Jessica was lost in thought when she suddenly felt something cold on her face. She lifted her hand to wipe it away and realized she was crying without knowing when the tears started.
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