From Rougue To Luna novel Chapter 41

I changed into my boy-shorts and sports bra before pulling my baggy t-shirt over my head. It hung low off of my shoulder as I crawled onto my bed, dropping my aching body down onto the plush covers below. Days in a row of hours on hours of training were beginning to take its toll and I was glad for the sleep pulling at my eyelids as my head hit the pillow.

Maybe tonight I can actually get some decent sleep.

I felt my eyes closing shut before I had even settled into the covers, but my prayers had not been answered. I was immediately pulled into a nightmare I wished more than anything that I could pull myself out of.

Sweat beaded heavily on my skin, dripping off of my forehead as I thrashed in the tiny bed. The covers had come undone and I wrapped what little of the sheet was left crumpled around me. My claws had broken through in my sleep, easily shredding the crisp starchy sheet beneath me and tearing into the mattress as a painful growl ripped through me.

"Oh miss. Please you have to be quiet. They'll find you if you don't. I'm not supposed to have you in here without permission. Please." The you nurse's shaky hands pressed me down into the bed as she checked the medicine dripping into my IV. "Here, I'll give you a little more. That should quiet her down hmm?"

My eyes snapped open and my wolf's dark eyes surfaced long enought to glare at her, but disappeared as soon as the cool liquid entered my veins.

Hot. So hot.

I was burning up, like my skin was on fire. What was happening to me? My stomach ached where my stitches had been ripped open. My entire body felt sluggish from the blood transfusion and I couldn't believe I was even alive. Right now I wished more than anything that I was dead. My baby was gone. Why couldn't I have gone with her?

"She needs me." I whispered breathily. My limbs felt heavy, like a heavy weight was sitting on each of them.

My head flopped to the side as the nurse's kind eyes glanced down at me apologetically. "I'm so sorry." She whispered before walking away.

I didn't know why, but for some reason this young nurse took pity on me to bring me in. I could barely remember a car pulling up beside me as I tried to escape. She'd found me crawling up the side of the road, bleeding out as I cried, screamed in grief and agony. She shoved me into her car and brought me to a nearby clinic. I wished she'd have left me. I didn't want to be here. Nothing mattered now. My vision blurred and darkened as I felt sleep trying to take me, but I wouldn't let it. I wanted to feel the pain wracking my body, the pounding in my head as my skull weighed down on my brain.

"Mommy?" A angelic voice floated into my ears from beside me and my head snapped over, eyes fighting to take in what stood in front of me.

She pulled me towards a dimly lit room, only the shine of metal glinting in the light. "Here mommy, look! How pretty!" She said, releasing my hand as she pulled one of the metal objects out of a nearby bin.

I gasped as she ran her finger down the edge of the scalpel. "No, baby don't..." but I was too late.

The smell of iron rich blood permeated the air, overwhelming my senses as she drug the blade up her delicate wrist. "It's ok mommy. It doesn't hurt look. I'm ok. You can do it too! We can play together. Here." She smiled innocently as her hand became soaked with thick red blood.

Drip. Drip. Drip.

"We can play forever now. Here mommy." She said, pushing the blade into my hand.

I took it from her, my mouth gaping slightly as I watched. She didn't look in pain. She looked almost happy. We could be together if I did. I could keep her safe forever if I could just do this one thing. It didn't hurt her. It shouldn't hurt me.