Not Ready For My Mate novel Chapter 95

He saw the position we were in and grimaced. I was confused at first, seeing him slip out of bed and begin to walk away. I couldn't help but jump up and run after him. I grabbed his hand, making him flinch and snatch his hand away from me. Hurt stabbed at my heart but I held it back, well until he spoke the words.

"I reject you as my mate."

Then he left.

I had instantly fallen to the floor and cried out in pain. I now knew what Mom and Izzy had gone through. The pain was excruciating. I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy. I made a very rash, and probably very stupid mistake but I ran into my bathroom, then closed the door. I went over to the cupboard and grabbed the piece of metal. I stared at that razor for the longest time, and yet I still made the wrong decision. I sat down on the bathroom floor and let the cool metal slice against my wrist. I don't know what compelled me to use this as an escape but I did. Then I did it again. And again. And again. I wish I stopped at one, or not even have started, but I couldn't help to crave the calmness that washed over as I watched the red liquid run down my hand onto the floor.

That was about a day or two ago, I don't know. I've just been so lost lately. I see him everyday and I've tried to talk to him, I just wanted to know why he rejected me, but everytime I approached him he would either walk away or ignore my presence completely. It hurt but none of that compared to the pain I felt earlier this morning.

Flashback

"Callie, Sweety please just come down and eat something." My Mother said sadly as she watched me from where she stood by the door. I looked over at her then sighed and climbed off the bed, pulling my sleeves down as far as possible. I couldn't let anyone see the marks. It would show weakness, and that's something I forbid myself to show ever again. No one will ever see me like he did ever again. I was vulnerable and weak at the time and he used it too his advantage. No one will do this to me again.

I can deal with the pain by myself.

We both walked down the staircase, towards the kitchen. I saw that no food was set up yet and immediately knew what she was doing.

"I know cooking always cheers you up Callie." I smiled at her for the first time. Cooking has always been my passion. I would usually help the chefs to cook the Pack's food. I never complained when they gave me the worst jobs, just took it in stride and learned from watching. I also started practising by myself, sometimes the head chef would help me, but that was on rare occasions.

"Oh this wonderful. And now that you're living here it will be amazing." Aunty Chloe says smiling. Little did she know that for me, this would be the worst thing. No, Callie, just let him go.

I took in a deep breath and continued to eat my food. Once done I left but stopped abruptly when I saw Emily and him kissing. It was evident that there was so much passion between them. I knew that I couldn't watch this, and now that they're going to live here...

I couldn't stay.

So here I am, packing my bags. I had told my mom about this programme where I could go study in another country. I chose England and she was thrilled with the idea. I was only planning on going during the holidays but it's all changed. My mother allowed me to go, once I explained everything to her. She was livid, I could tell, but I made her promise that she wouldn't kick them out. It took a lot of convincing but she finally promised. I asked her if she could please tell Theo I said goodbye, because frankly I couldn't face him either.