From Rougue To Luna novel Chapter 14

He pulled back slightly to be able to look down at me, his eyes pained as he saw my frightened expression. "How could you think I wouldn't want you? Whatever it is, we can work through it. But I can't do that if you won't tell me what it is Lili."

I shook my head again and pushed him gently away, walking toward the bathroom. I paused for a moment, turning to look at him once more. I could see how conflicted he was. He wanted to follow after me, but knowing my reaction would be to pull away, he stayed locked in place.

"I'm sorry Rhett. I can't. I'll try my best to tell you the things I can, but I'll never be able to give all of my secrets over to you. There are just too many, and I can't bear to see the pity in your eyes once you know." I turned to walk into the bathroom when his quiet voice stopped me.

"Lili. Please just..."

"I just need time Rhett. Please just give me time ok?"

Without looking back I walked in and shut the door, turning on the water before crumpling on to the floor. How was I ever going to do this? How could I get vet tell anyone, much less him, what I'd been through? What I'd allowed, Hell, chosen for my life? The answer was simple. I couldn't.

I heard his heavy footsteps pause and then turn toward the door, clicking it shut behind him. I knew he could accept many things from me. The bond would force him to. But there were some things even that couldn't change. One thing was certain though. I would have to let him in some if this would ever have a chance.

I allowed myself a moment longer before I peeled myself off of the floor, steadying myself as my hands gripped into the cold marble counter. I looked into the mirror and winced at the sight of my puffy red eyes and splotched face.

Well this looks less than ideal.

I couldn't believe it. I didn't even look like myself. My deep blue eyes and lips popped fiercely and my cheekbones looked like they could cut glass. My natural curves were enhanced in the slinky dress and my breasts were on full display, threatening to spill out of the deep v-opening.

"Not bad Ave." I mumbled before strutting out of the room.

The bar was full tonight and I could feel eyes on me as I made my way to grab my tray. Avery winked at me as she passed me on her way to her table. I'd never felt unattractive, but tonight I felt like a completely different person. It was always hard to exude confidence when you were raised to be virtually invisible, or worse, bullied. I felt like a better version of the reserved girl from before. Like my internal beauty could finally burst through.

I'd worked at this bar for nearly a year and a half and I'd never gotten even remotely close to the amount of attention I was getting now. I had to admit, it felt good. I worked my first few tables with ease, squealing as my tips began to multiply and several men asked for my number. She was right. They were falling after me.