Omega Bound (Never Ending Darkness) novel Chapter 33

Chapter 33

Ayla

Watching my door close, I slowly slid to the floor holding my lips. Staring at the wall across my room, all I can feel is total shock. I just had my first kiss. Years of abuse, being kept in a cage showed me no intimacy. I have never felt the love of another, never had someone to call my own. I am trying to rack my brain around what it meant. He blamed it on his wolf. Did Ronan really push him that hard? Was it part of trying to pull my wolf out? Why me? Could I continue living here, putting him in danger after this. My thoughts were racing, and guilt flooded my mind. I stayed there for a while, resting my fingers on my lips. His lips were so soft, only a brief second I felt them, but it felt amazing. I decided that if I do end up leaving, I wanted Thane to know just how special of a gift he gave me. To me. I had a small moment where I felt wanted, normal. After 24 years, I experienced

the butterflies and the shock of intimacy and if I never see him again, I will carry it forever. I pull out my phone and send him a text. Short and sweet, to the point.

Me: That was my first kiss.

Sitting on the floor for what feels like hours, thinking, fretting, I decide it would be best to lay down and get some rest in the giant cloud called a bed. Laying here however, has done nothing to stop my overthinking. Could I be worthy of more? Would my mate want. me after everything I have been through. I hear a knock on the door, and before I overly panic, I hear Eric announce himself. Letting him in, we take a seat on the couch, and her sets his bag down on the table. “Ayla, it’s good to see you recovering. You look even better now that your shifter healing has kicked in. Alpha Thane tells me that your wolf tried to reconnect, and I would like to talk to you a little about that. If that is okay?” I nod my head “yes” in agreement and he proceeds. “I am sure you remember your first shift and how painful that was? I think that since your wolf has been withdrawn for ten years, that when she shifts, you will be in a great deal of pain. Alpha Thane can help talk your through the pain and shift easier. I will be on standby with sedatives if you can’t handle the pain. It would only be a small amount, and you could try again afterwards, but I would like that to be a last resort. We could also try sedating you a little to try and pull her out or maybe she would pull you in. I think if you make contact in your mind, that there would be a lot of catching up to do so to speak, or things to discuss between you two before she surfaces, but ultimately that would be left up to you. It would be a supervised sedation though. One of us would be there with you.” I nod in agreement taking in everything he is saying, mulling over questions and reservations in my head. “You could

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also try being around other shifters, in their wolf form. That may help her feel safer. I know that Alpha Thane, as an Alpha of Alphas is able to pull wolves and force shifts. He wouldn’t force you, but the option is there.” Alpha of Alphas? A title I have not heard but somehow seems to register familiarity with me.

“Also, we should discuss the potential difficulties your wolf faces being gone for so long. With only one shift, you never had the opportunity to form a bond with her. There is a high probability she could either be traumatized and scared like you or feral. With not contact and no bond, she could pose a safety risk to you and others around you.” My heart. starts racing, fear flashing in my features. “I know that sounds scary” Eric states and then reaches over and places his hand on mine. The touch isn’t unwelcome, but it doesn’t sit right with me like Thane’s does. “We wouldn’t do anything to your wolf Ayla. Our ultimate goal would be to keep her safe from herself and the others safe as well. There are things we can try if she does surface feral. Don’t be afraid.”

“One more thing, once your wolf surfaces, there will be a strong chance you could sense a mate and that would put you into heat. Omegas go into heat once they find their mates. The heats are longer, more intense, and more frequent. Other shifters go into heats a couple times a year, depending on the moon. I know with you past abuse that could be difficult for you. It is something to think about. We don’t like to suppress heats because it can be harmful to the body and is pretty taboo, but I think an exception could be made in your case. just give it some thought.” I nod my head “yes” as he stands to leave my rooms. “I will keep checking on with Thane, but I think you’ve made a full physical recover, which is the easy part. Goodbye Ayla.”

I shut the door behind him, taking in the information overload again. Is my mate here? Should I be leaving my rooms in search of my fated mate? Would there be rejection? Would I want rejected? If I get one more piece of information to mull over and fret about, I may break. I crawl into my bed and under my covers. I feel on the brink of tears, but there’s nothing. I don’t know how I can have all of these emotions and worries, but yet feel so numb inside. My phone beeps and I quickly look out from my cocoon to check my message, eager to see how Thane takes the revelation I put on him.

Me: You may have taken it, but I am glad you did. I want you to know that I will carry that with me forever. No matter what.

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