I didn’t want to cause a spectacle in the street, so I grabbed Jonathan’s arm and dragged him into
the car.
After the car started moving, the feeling of nausea grew even stronger.
Seeing my terrible complexion, Jonathan asked in concern, “Are you feeling uncomfortable
somewhere? I’ll help you request leave from the company.”
“There’s no need for that. Frederick has already done that for me,” I replied curtly.
Jonathan’s expression darkened, but he said nothing in the end.
I shook my head, calming down suddenly. I took a deep breath and said evenly, “You really don’t have to do this, Jonathan. In truth, I don’t blame you. Other than feeling upset about you saving Alicia over me back then, I’ve made my peace with everything else that happened afterward.
“We’re simply not a good match for each other. Although you failed to give me a sense of security, I also lacked self–confidence and became paranoid of everything, thus doing a lot of things that annoyed you.
“When it comes down to it, I’m not entirely without fault. The fact that we arrived at this point at all proves that we both have issues.”
Now that I thought about it, I found the situation rather ridiculous.
Although I wasn’t willing to see Jonathan, even I felt annoyed at the person I used to be.
The past me would pester Jonathan every day. He was the only person I cared about, and I devoted
all my heart and being to him as if the rest of the world didn’t matter.
That version of me certainly lacked any sort of charm.
If I didn’t even like that version of myself, how would Jonathan have liked me?
“It wasn’t that I didn’t like it,” Jonathan said hoarsely. “I did feel annoyed at your behavior, but I’ve
never considered divorcing you. I thought that even if we quarreled a lot, we’d still spend the rest of our lives together.”
I shook my head. “I don’t want that kind of life, though. Alicia was just the fuse that started the
fire, but the root of the problem is that we’re from completely different worlds. I’m unable to trust
you, and you can’t afford to accommodate me unconditionally either.
“As time goes by, we’ll inevitably become exhausted, and at that poin,t new issues will arise. We’re both adults now, Jonathan. Let’s not be so childish anymore.”
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