Not Ready For My Mate novel Chapter 101

"Theo I'm sure that this would be a very painful conversation, but could you please tell me what happened when you were with Bane?" We look down, hating all the guilt that creeps up on us. All the screams. All the blood. We don't even notice that we're digging our nails into our arm before mom is taking our hands into her grasp. She puts her fingers under our chin, making us look up at her.

"I'm so sorry Theo."

"Why are you sorry?" We ask her questioningly. She looks down now before wiping away a stray tear.

"I-I'm sorry 'cause I wasn't there for you. Not just with Bane. I was never there when you were growing up. You've told me many times that you had a wonderful childhood with Steven but, but I just can't help and feel that it was my fault that I missed out on your life. I never got to see you walk for the first time, speak for the first time. I missed all of those moments and it's all my fault. I'm so sorry I'm such a bad mother Theo. Please forgive me-" We cut her off, having enough of this.

"Mom, you are not and never will be a bad mother. Even though you weren't there in the beginning, you're here now for me. Yeah, we missed happy memories together but that doesn't mean we can't make some ourselves. You are such a good mother. You are not a bad mother, even after I tried to kill everyone, you still had faith in me. You could have killed me that day when I attacked but you didn't. You still believed in me. Plus, look at the great job you've done with Callie." We think to her as we hold her hands tightly, smiling at her lovingly. The whole time we 'speak', she continues to cry. We pull her into our embrace and hold her tightly. We don't like the fact that she thought all of this is her fault. None of it is.

"It wasn't easy being there. They never let me go outside in the beginning..." And we just continued to explain how we lived for that time period. It was one of the hardest things we've had to talk about but we knew it would be better to finally get it off our chest. The whole time we explained, Mom comforted us. We cried. We cried and apologized to all the innocent people we killed. Nothing could show how sorry we were and that's just something we'll have to live with.

"I'm so sorry-" We place our hand over her mouth before shaking our heads, still wiping away a few tears. We smile down at her before kissing her forehead. We then rest our head on her head, enjoying her embrace.

"Mom, where's Callie?" We ask, finally realising that she hasn't been around. Mom pulls back before sighing and sitting down, rubbing her head again. She does that often when she's frustrated.

"She met her mate, and he rejected her-"

"Why couldn't life be easy?" We ask ourselves before a pair of pants are dropped on our laps and Izzy sits down next to us.

"If life were easy, no one would know the true meanings of love, hard work or the actual meaning of life." She says as we sit down again. She looks over at us with a soft smile before resting her head on our shoulder.

"Do you ever think we'll be normal?" I ask her curiously.

"Theo. We'll never be normal. As Maya Angelou always said 'If you are always trying to be normal, you will never know how amazing you can be'"