Chapter 42
Ariana
I wake up from a nap and look over at Tony who’s lying g next to me reading a book,
“Hey honey, how’ne you feeling? This morning was a lot for you.” He says as he gently moves a stand of hair out of my face. I sigh, and raise my hand to stop his from leaving my cheek..
“It was a lot. I don’t know how I feel about it all. I’m just tired of everything being so fucked up, you know?” He kisses my forehead and nods silently, staring into my eyes with his warm green ones. We haven’t spoken about what’s been happening with him, Luca and I yet. They care for me, shower me with compliments and kisses, give me mind fucking orgasms and then we just continue like this is normal, when it’s anything but My head is swimming now after seeing Luciano and the guilt is coming in full force. These are his friends, and I think I’m falling for them. Not even to mention the fucked up feelings that came back from seeing Luciana in his hulking form so vulnerable and sad. I know he knows he fucked up. The thing is, how do we ever come back from what’s happened? and how do we go forward with what’s happening now. Looking at Tony right here and now though I feel safe, loved, wanted and I push back everything else.
“Honey? What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours?”
“I just…I…Tony, what are we? I mean, what are we doing here?” He takes a moment to think before responding with a kiss on my lips that says everything words can not. A soft, gentle, breathtaking kiss.
“I love you. The rest we can figure out along the way, if you want to?”
I gasp, he..holy shit. He loves me? Me? The girl with all the scars and skeletons in her closet. The broken and damaged girl who’s never known such a word. Well fuck, the feeling that is in my heart right now is not one I’m letting go of
“I love you too.” I whisper back and watch as his green eyes sparkle and a smile so big spreads across his face. He kisses me again, this time with more passion and that warm feeling in my heart shoots right to my vagina. We’ve never done anything besides in the bath with Luca that’s become a nice routine of them washing and caring for me, in more ways than one. Tony ralls himself on top of me and grinds his hard cock against my throbbing pussy. Considering it’s been weeks now of them pleasing me and I’ve had no way to reciprocate, I’m amazed and his will to hold back. I bet they have both taken a lot of cold showers. His mouth continues to attack mine, we’re both panting heavily and I can smell my arousal wetting my panties. His hand travels down my belly and finds its way into my pants. He runs his finger along my slit, pulling a husky grown from him as he feels through my wet folds.
“Fuck honey, you’re so wet. He puts one finger inside of me slowly and I arche my back at the feeling. How would his cock feel?
The door slams open.
“Oops, shit, sorry!” Luca steps in and closes the door quickly. A big smirk on his face as he comes up to the bed and lays down beside me with his head resting on his elbow and a devilish glint in his eye. Tony curls his finger on my g spot and pulls a moan from me as I look at Luca.
“Whatcha guys doing?” He says playfully.
“Luca… Tony says warningly.
“Yes yes, I know, trust me I’m fucking rock hard watching you two. This is so fucking hot and I want nothing more than to either join or watch you finish her, but, Luciano knows.”
Tony’s hand stops and slides out of my pants, making me whimper at the loss. That’s a mood killer. He looks at Luca again.
Igasp. He…Luca too? oh…fuck me. What is happening? I look at Tuny, who looks at Luca, waiting patiently for more of an explanation.
“He knows, and he supports it. He want’s what we want.” Luca looks at me, “for you to be happy, and if we make you happy, if you will have us, he supports it.”
He looks worridly at me, an expression Luca hardly ever wears. He wants to know how I feel. I just told Tony that I love him and as fucked up as it is, I love Luca too. I want them both and I don’t care if that’s selfish. I think I deserve to be a little selfish. I run my hand through his messy

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