Alpha's Mute Mate novel Chapter 63

I am glad I am about to get killed by the man that I thought loved me.

This shows that I don't deserve happiness.

This shows that happiness is completely bullshit.

I wanted to rip my heart out it kept begging for love.

My stupid heart put me through this.

I should die.

I muster enough energy to move my neck so I could face the man I once loved one more time before I die.

It was useless all I could see was black.

Nothing my sight never can back.

My hearing was too busy hearing the yelling of someone.

I still haven't figured out who exactly.

Maybe it was me.

It doesn't matter anymore.

I feel something go on my back.

I wasn't sure what it was exactly but my gut is telling me that it's boiling water.

I slowly feel around a piece of the broken mirror once I got one I felt for the sharp edge ready to plunge it into my throat.

Before I could I felt something on my arm stopping me.

I grip the shard cutting myself in the process.

The person most likely Adrian placed pressure on my head.

I felt my skull was about to snap.

My brain was screaming wildly.

I was just happy I was about to die.

I feel the pressure get heavier and heavier.

It was torture waiting for the pressure to kill me.

After a couple of seconds I got my wish.

I felt him remove his foot from my head.

I brace myself and I feel him jump on my head.

I smiled at the contact before everything went completely black.

I open my eyes in a frantic.

I was in bed Adrian was near me with a worried expression.

"Oh thanks god I tried waking you up but you wouldn't wake up. You fell asleep when we hugged. Lily are you ok? You look pale.."

I stare at him and everything that happened to me in that dreams comes rushing to me all at once.

I back away from him frightened.

I look around trying to figure out if this is a dream.

I widen my eyes as Adrian comes closer to my face.

"Hey lily are you ok?" He asks again.

How do I answer that?

If I say no he would want to know what's wrong and if I say yes he would know I am lying.

I stare at him wondering what exactly happened in my dream.

Was it actually Adrian?

Or was it just an hallucination that my brain made to terror me even more in my sleep?

I feel him place both of his hands on my shoulder.

I stare at him and I feel something wet hit my arm.

It doesn't mean that it'll actually happen.

Right?

I don't know if Adrian senses my need for him but his eyes just turned jet black.

I widen my eyes in shock as he starts to attack my neck.

I whimpered under his touch.

His mouth was hot and every kiss, lick and bite he gave me made me feel hot.

He was burning my skin in a pleasurable way.

"Adrian...wait..." I managed to say under his touch.

He stops and looks at me.

His eyes still had a dark shade to it.

"I'm scared..." I say looking down at my hands.

It was a sad feeling really.

I felt that I wouldn't be able to satisfy him. I'm not experienced like the other girls he had.

"Lily do you want me to stop?" He asks me.

I shake my head right away.

I want him..

I need him..

I want to experience this with Adrian before one of us dies.

I want to Adrian to be happy, and if it's sex then I'll give it to him.

I want to be connected with him.

I want to be one with him and only him.