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I don’t know since when, but late at night, snowflakes started to drift down, and outside the window, a series of loud firecrackers suddenly burst forth. Xie Jingchen instinctively covered the ears of the little woman in his arms.
The originally romantic and ambiguous atmosphere turned into a series of actions.
The military’s firecrackers are always plentiful and loud, so they can be clearly heard, even in their residential building located right at the heart of the core area.
"Don’t be scared, wife, it will be over soon." Xie Jingchen burrowed the little woman’s head into his broad chest, as if carefully enveloping her in his own world.
Shanni’s face was still flushed, she just buried it in his chest, too shy to look up, slightly lowering her head as a sign of agreement.
In her ears were the intense sounds of his heartbeat, one after another, surpassing the loud ’crackle and pop’ sounds of fireworks outside, like thunderous drums directly beating upon her heart.
Making Shanni feel like crying... She knew, it was because she was too lonely.
The feeling of having someone by her side, was so wonderful. It caused her to feel frightened, she was truly afraid of guarding the sorrow of being alone in her heart.
Tears unknowingly started to flow, growing more and more... Within just a few minutes, Shanni was sobbing, her face buried in his chest.
At first, Xie Jingchen did not understand what was wrong, as they were just embracing and being intimate beforehand, he thought she had overcome her emotional barriers, but unexpectedly after a pause, the little woman’s tears had drenched his chest shirt!
"What’s wrong, wife? Are you feeling uncomfortable somewhere?" Xie Jingchen steadied her delicate body, wanting to pull back a bit to see her face better.
But he was only met with Shanni silently shaking her head, then shaking again.
She had already treated him as her close lover, and suddenly realized that the fundamental generational concepts between them made her feel at a loss.
It was also Xie Jingchen’s expression, in Shanni’s view, that to him, she was merely an expression of ’desire’, but not reaching the level of ’deep affection’—Do all men love because of desire?
Shanni, in that moment, deeply doubted love.
If neither spouse feels love, wouldn’t her child have to grow up in a loveless family?
She had been favored by her dad since she was young, and her relationship with her dad was even better than with her mom.
If the child’s dad is not truly sincere to her, his wife, could he truly love the child that he fathered? She had always hoped that this baby would be a lovely little Princess, and then, before the family planning policy came into effect, quickly have a second child.
This way, the age difference between the two children wouldn’t be too large, with the older sister looking after the younger brother—It must be said, after becoming an adult, she particularly wanted a younger brother, and deeply regretted why she had objected to her mom’s idea of having another child back then.
If her mom had really had another child when she was in her teens, the hardships her mom endured wouldn’t have been so severe.
Due to her own family reasons, Shanni’s initial thought was that one child was too lonely, it would be best to have one girl and one boy, making a perfect group, and generally, older sisters tend to be more mature and sensible, hence, ever since she knew she was pregnant, she had been teaching in the direction of a soft, cute little Princess...
What if she ends up having a son? Gosh, can prenatal education really mold one’s temperament? It’s just the quirky interest of a pregnant woman... The baby is in her womb, can’t she just be happy for a while...
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