*Lena*
“I am coming back," he said, his voice a whisper.
I swallowed, nodding my head and looking down at the ground.
“Lena."
“Yeah?" I looked up at him, unable to stop the tears from welling in my eyes. One tear spilled over and trailed down my cheek.
Xander stepped toward me, then knelt before me. He reached up and used his thumb to wipe the tear from my cheek. “This isn't forever. I'll come back for you."
“We've said that to each other so many times–"
“And this is the last time, I promise." He took my hands in his, knitting his fingers around mine. “I promise."
“What–"
“I don't know what we're going to do, or where we're going to live. But I need to return to Egoren to find that out. It's going to be okay. We made it through this. We can make it through anything."
He rose on his knees and wrapped his arms around me. I knew it hurt him to do so; I could feel the way his muscles strained and then trembled around me.
“Xander," I said into his shoulder. I could feel the welts beneath his shirt as I ran my hands down his back. “You're hurting–"
“I'm fine," he replied, one of his hands running up the length of my back and into my hair, which was tousled from sleep. He pulled my head back so I was looking into his eyes. They darkened, a flash of need passing behind them that set a fire burning through my stomach.
He kissed me gently at first, his lips brushing against mine.
“I can give you my blood," I whispered against his lips.
“I need a lot more of you than that," he growled, and I felt my body go limp in his arms. His tongue parted my lips, tangling with mine as his grip on my body strengthened. He pulled me into him, almost pulling me off of the cot in the process.
Primal desire took over. I couldn't remember the last time we were truly alone together. He had me out of my clothes before I could blink, and then he rose to his full height to shed his own.
But my breath caught painfully in my throat as my eye focused on a jagged scar that stretched across his shoulder.
His mark was… gone.
“Xander," I cried, reaching up to touch the barely healed wound, but he grabbed my wrist, stopping me.
“It doesn't matter–"
“It matters!" I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks again. Oh, Goddess… my heart was shattering in my chest as I took in the scars that roped around his chest, his arms, and his neck. He'd been ripped apart. My hands trembled as I laid them against his belly where the muscles were taut but marred by healed bite marks.
He'd heal; I knew that much. But these scars would be there forever, a constant reminder of what had happened to both of us.
“You can mark me again," he breathed as I trailed my fingertips over his skin. “I want you to. I need you to do that for me, Lena."
“I don't want to hurt you again, not after what–what they did to you–"
“You can't hurt me," he said, dropping to his knees.
“Xander, I can't, not when you're still healing–"
He kissed me again, hard, his lips bruising my own as he gathered my hair in his hand at the nape of my neck and pulled so I was looking up at him.
“You're my mate," he rasped. “I want your mark on my body."
Desire ripped through me, clouding my judgment. I didn't want to cause him any more pain. But…
He pushed me back against the cot, which groaned beneath our weight. It wasn't meant for two people, but Xander didn't seem to care that it was likely splintering beneath us. He ran his hands down the curve of my hips and thighs, cupping my ass as he pulled me closer.
My body was burning with heat, and my core was begging to be touched. I rocked my hips against his, a barely audible plea escaping my lips in a moan.
He kissed me again and again, his lips traveling down my neck and across my collarbone, over the mark he'd left on my chest.
He nudged my legs apart and ran a finger through my slit, testing me. I was already drenched, and a raspy grunt of approval was all I heard before Xander ran his tongue over one of my n*****s. I sucked in my breath and arched my back, crying out as the sensation of his fingers and his mouth brought me so close to the edge that I almost went over.
“Not yet," he whispered against my skin.
He crawled over to me and gathered me to his chest. He laid us down, my body pressed into his as he drew slow circles over the side of the swell of my belly. He'd already promised me he'd be back in time for her birth. I was holding him to that promise. That was something I couldn't do on my own.
“Go to sleep," he whispered.
I chuckled at the demand, but my eyelashes fluttered against his shirt nonetheless. Fatigue was creeping up my legs as I settled against him.
“I want to see you off and say goodbye," I protested, the words a mere whisper.
“We're not going to say goodbye. I'm sick of goodbyes."
“Me too," I answered honestly, fighting to keep my eyes open. I looked up at him, taking in every curve of his face, counting every amber flake in his obsidian irises.
“No goodbyes," he repeated as his fingers continued their slow dance over my belly.
“I love you," I breathed as my eyes shut.
“I love you, too," he replied, kissing the top of my head. He pressed his cheek against the top of my head, and his warmth and heartbeat began to lull me into a deep sleep.
“I'm going to rule in Egoren with you," I whispered, but I wasn't sure if the words were even audible. “I'll go home with you when the time is right. Alexis will grow up there...."
I fell asleep snuggled against him. Even in my dreams, I could feel him there, his arms wrapped around me, one hand resting where our baby slept nestled in my belly.
I didn't feel him go. I didn't know that he'd lingered in the entrance of the tent for a good five minutes just looking at me, his duffle bag slung over his shoulder and his hands clenched into fists. I hadn't known how badly he wanted to stay, or how much he was willing to sacrifice for just an extra hour together, or an extra minute.
I hadn't realized it started raining as he left the tent and walked to the port. He'd lifted his face to the rain, letting the chilled bite of the droplets wake him up. He'd boarded that ship filled with regret.
I hadn't known that Abigail had approached him, her eyes glimmering with emotion as she asked him how I was. She'd wanted to come see me, but Adrian had told her to give me some space to be with my mate. She knew she'd see me again; she told Xander as much. But Xander put an arm around her shoulder and pulled her into a tight hug regardless. They'd both thought they'd lost me.
The ship pulled away from the port and drifted into the sunrise, all while I was lost in my dreams.
I slept soundly knowing that this was the last goodbye we'd have to experience.
And when I woke?
I was going home.
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Yeah sorry full of crap clichés skipping chapters...
Really oh fn....off another weak heroine roll, her pack hated her, she was abused, why would she do this .... pfghhj off at another cliche novel. .... Nope...