Sunny remained silent for a while, then nodded.
"I think that's it. I might be forgetting something, but overall, that is how being Supreme is different from being a Saint. I'd say, overall... I feel like a demigod. No, actually, I feel like a god. Because my point of reference is being a mundane human, not an actual deity. From the point of view of a mortal man, my power is no different from that of a god. Of course, from the point of view of a god, I'd probably seem like a child."
He looked into the distance.
“But it’s... it's different. The way I am. Because of how domineering my Will is, the world feels far more malleable than before. And I also feel them all, at every waking moment... my shadows. My connection to them is subtle, but it is always there. As if tens of thousands of voices are whispering quietly into my ears. I can also sense them all — moving, fighting, killing. It is as if I have tens of thousands of bodies and hundreds of thousands of eyes. It is enough to drive a man mad, to be honest.”
Sunny's expression turned somber.
“It is even worse for Nephis, whose Domain includes billions of people. The longing, their desires wash over her like an ocean, and although she rarely speaks about it, I know that she sometimes struggles not to drown in that ocean.”
He sighed.
“Sometimes, I wonder... how much we will change as time goes on."
Eurys stared at him for a while, then clicked his jaw.
“Ah, but that is the bane of being a demigod, boy. You are not quite a mortal, but you are not quite a god either. That is the burden all Supreme humans have to bear. Or maybe it is a blessing — because that burden will gradually make you less and less human.”
Sunny frowned, then stared at him darkly. “Less and less human? What do you mean? How is that a blessing?"
The ancient skeleton let out a creaky laugh.
“Well, you asked me about the Apotheosis, didn't you? The step of becoming a Spirit — a Sacred being, so to say. You described how different being Supreme feels from being Transcendent, but, boy... being Sacred is an entirely different state of existence. Apotheosis is the act of becoming a deity... a god. A lesser deity and a minor god, but still something fundamentally different from a mortal. It is as much about your consciousness and your capacity to encompass the vastness of it all as it is about the quality of your soul and your
power."
Eurys shook his skull.
“A Supreme is someone who expands their soul to dominate a portion of the world. A Spirit is someone whose soul can encompass the whole world. Needless to say, that is not something a human mind, a human self can withstand. So, that is why becoming less human can be a blessing for a Supreme — because it changes them gradually, slowly turning them into beings capable of attempting Apotheosis. Very few ever succeed in that attempt, of course.”
Sunny remained silent for a while, trying to come to terms with what he just heard.
‘Becoming less human..."
A shiver ran down his spine.
Sunny cherished his humanity quite a lot. More than that, losing it sounded frightening — because it was an integral part of his being. Losing some of his humanity was no different from losing himself.
And losing himself was no different from death.
It was quite ironic to say, but even despite having killed himself once... Sunny was still afraid of death, just like any human would be.
He couldn't help but remember Anvil and Ki Song, whose inhuman callousness had been the very reason he hated them so much.
But still, still...
It was not like he or Nephis had a choice. They had to become Sacred. They would not be able to survive or save those they cared about otherwise.
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