One More Chance novel Chapter 125

~~~Since I know that I never will forget the memories that made my yesterday. I will try not to let it interfere the choices I will make along the way. So now I'm leaving yesterday behind and finally, I've made up my mind, so let the memories stay away and think about today. I'm leaving yesterday behind 'cause I will try to live my life once more, just the way I did before~~~

-Keno-

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Due to my family's connection, our divorce was quickly granted. I couldn't explain exactly how I felt when the court announced that we are no longer husband and wife. I tried to glance in Luke's direction but he was still sitting in his seat, staring blankly at the folder in front of him.

"Ms Soriano,"

I heard my lawyer called me and I admit it felt so strange. When I glanced again at my now ex-husband, for real, I found that he was longer staring at the folder but at me. And I gulped when our eyes met. There were lots of emotions written in his eyes, but if there's one that I have been to read, it's despair.

But I have no words to say to him, so when my lawyer patted me on the shoulder, gesturing me to leave the room, I took a deep breath and left his team.

"Congratulations, Ms Soriano."

My lawyer said before opening the door of his car. We reached the parking lot and we were about to part.

"Thank you, Mr Reynaldo." I smiled at nodded at him before opening my car. Actually, it wasn't for congratulating me on regaining my freedom, but I was thanking him for all the help and effort he has given in his matter.

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"Sam? What are you doing here, sweetie?"

I took a deep breath when I heard my mother's voice. I slowly turned to her and smiled. I was sitting on the edge of the pool, staring at the stars as what happened in court this morning kept coming back to me, especially the sadness in Luke's eyes.

"Mom," I uttered giving her a sad smile.

She sat down next to me and handed me three cans of beer--- much to my surprise.

"Ohh... what is this?" I asked, surprised.

"Beer," she shrugged.

"Mom, I know, but---

"Tss! Just open it and drink and stop asking questions, Sam."

I couldn't help but chuckle as she started opening the first of her three cans.

"Hmm... don't you know the saying about beers, baby?"

I stopped opening the can in my hand and looked at her.

"What saying?" I asked her confused.

"That there is no problem in this world that cannot be solved by a beer." She shrugged and I chuckled looking back at the beer in my hands.

How I wish after drinking those beers all my problems even the heaviness in my chest disappears.

"I'm just kidding, I just want to see you smile."

"Mom, I'm crying my heart out here, but you're smiling?" I asked frowning as I dried my tears.

"It's because I'm happy."

And that made my frown deeper.

"Don't get it wrong, my baby. I'm your mother, so the pain I feel is double when I see you hurt or even cry. It's just that in the middle of this chaotic moment in your life, as a mother, I couldn't help but feel proud because you have become a courageous and resilient woman and I see it from the way you deal with the situation you are in."

She said caressing my face.

"I remember when you were younger, the only thing you complained to me was about how your classmate didn't let you participate in their play or when someone in your class told you that you were his crush, you know, those simple matters, but now I can see how you've changed. My baby is no longer a baby."

She sighed before continuing.

"You know what, despite everything you've been through, the almost unending pain, heartaches and challenges in your life, I'm proud of what you have become. I'm proud of what you've done, the decision you've made. Yeah, maybe you're just in the first stage of moving on and I know how difficult it is for you, but as they say, you will never know the power of yourself until someone hurts you badly...

For now, you couldn't help but cry because you're hurting. You're sad and upset because of what happened, but believe me, if you slowly learn to let go of all the grudges in your heart against the past, you will heal. But in order to heal, you have to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear and start forgiving the people--- or should I say the person who hurt you but most importantly, yourself...

You also need to forgive yourself because forgiveness is not only for the people who hurt you, but it's your gift to yourself. It's the best gift you can give to yourself, Sam. And trust me, when the day comes and that you've finally moved on and have finally forgiven yourself and him, a smile will creep into your lips and you won't be able to hide it. You will be grateful that you've finally overcome this matter and that it made you braver and a better person."

And with what she had said, I couldn't help but smile. After emptying the first can...

"I love you, Mom."

"Ohh... I love you too, sweetie." She kissed me on the forehead. "Tsk. tsk. Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.