Love You Or Hate You, I Can't Decide, Book2 novel Chapter 52

  Episode-52 "take her as Isabella"

Ernest's POV:

     I saw Celeste ran out of the room... I went too

far, why am I talking her for Isabella?.... I hate this.. I hate it... I am only Isabella's...

I belong to her.. for a moment I felt so comforted by Celeste, like I got back

what I lost... I touched my chest.. I said as tear roll down, "why it felt the

same.... It felt like I was supposed to do it.." I grabbed the coffee mug in

anger and threw it on the floor.. I can't take any other person as Isabella.... i

feel uncomfortable by this anger... my skin is burning in anger... ahh!!!!!

    1 hour later,

   I was sitting in my

mansion, looking at Isabella's picture.. I was on the floor resting my back

against my bed... my cheeks were wetted by my own tears, my hand is bleeding as I

break the shelf in anger.... I have this glass filled with alcohol... I haven't

drank it yet.. I have no will to drink... how can I kiss someone?... I looked at

Isabella, smiling in this picture and I said, "I am sorry... I don't know what

happen... but I love you Isabella..." I wish she could look at me, Isabella could

sold me, slap me on my mistake.. but she wont...

    I threw the glass

away in anger, I screamed.... My bed room door open.. I looked at Alexis... why is

he here?... I said, "get out!!" he closed the door and rushed to me... he was

worried.. he looked at my hand which still had the glass piece in it.. I don't

care.. I want to feel this pain..

     Alexis exclaimed,

"Brother!!.. are you nuts!!" he ran somewhere and came with a first aid

box...  Alexis removed the glass piece, I

didn't even flinch... he was giving me first aid as he said, "Brother.. what

happened?.. are you gone crazy?... what if mom sees this?... she will break

into pieces.." I know... I know that's why I live alone in this mansion... that's

why I don't go to visit mom... I know she read me very well... I don't want her to

see he breaking

     I wiped my tears

and said, "Cheery?"

    Alexis said, "she

went at palace.. mom called her.. dad wont let he leave till her wrist is

better" I don't want Cherry to see this, I don't want my sister to worry about

me, she worries a lot... she knows me as her strong brother... I won't let her see

me like this.

    I said, "Alexis...

today... I kissed Celeste... I took her for Isabella... how can I do that?.. Isabella

Alexis are you kidding me?!!!.. I won't do this.." Alexis chuckled and sat

there... something is wrong with him, he said, "I met Serene today... I... I

confessed... she said... she don't want to see my face..."

  I have no words... he

added, "but I am not going to stop... she is mine.. I am going to win her heart..

I will not give up.... And I hope you will do the same.."

    I said back, "there

is difference between you and Serene ... and me and Celeste... I don't even love

her..."

   Alexis looked at me

and said, "then try to love again... there is nothing wrong in it.... you did

nothing wrong... that coward killed Isabella, then why should you be punished..." I

looked at him without words...

   I have nothing to

say, Alexis said, "if I have to suggest then... take Celeste as Isabella... a life

like her doesn't matter in front of your happiness..." only my happiness

matters?,, he is saying this because he is my brother... but what about that

girl... I don't like her but that doesn't mean I can force her into something

like this... where she has be someone else... I don't hate her to that extend....

Anyways no one can be my Isabella... no one....