Love You Or Hate You, I Can't Decide, Book2 novel Chapter 198

   Episode-197 Forgive me

   Celeste's POV:

    I said, "Steven.. let's break the

engagement...."

He was stunned, he looked at me for a wide moment. he said,

"Celeste.. what are you saying?... did Prince Ernest forced you do this?"

  No.... but Ernest

helped me again, even if it was in his jealousy and passiveness.. he helped me...

         I said, "No..

Steven.. it's just, I don't want to get engaged... I know I should have told you

earlier, but I was doing this for dad... but dad wants me to be happy, and I am

not happy... I hate this..."  I don't want to

tell him I know what is he....

  Steven tried to grab

my hand and I pulled it away. I said, "sorry, Steven..... I am breaking the

engagement."

   I removed the ring

and placed it in front of him. I sigh, and said, "I am sorry..." I noticed his

feast got tighten. He looked at me in anger and asked, "Celeste... why?.. I need

a reason that you are rejecting me.... I will really treasure you..."

   He is testing my

limits, I said, "Steven.... I know.. what kind of person are you... I can't imagine

being anywhere near you, these nice talk, innocent face, gentleness is just a

delusion.... I don't want to say what are you... but I won't fall for these tricks"

his eyes went wide... he was thinking to himself... I know he never excepted that I

will know all of this.

  I got up but he

grabbed my hand and said, "Celeste... are you judging me by my past.. I promise I

will change.... I can't lose you again.... You will see, I will change.." I know a

person like him can never change, because his crimes were not mistake they

where his arrogance..

   I sigh and said, "I

lost trust in everyone.. Steven maybe you can change, but I can't.... I will be

this person, please.. I want to go away from these feelings...I just want to live

as a normal girl.... Living my own life for my own self... I don't need love...

especially from a person like you, I fell disgusted." I got out of the restaurant,

I don't feel sad, rather free....

   I was walking down

the street, it's been long since I did this.... it feels so good... after I wonder

for few more minutes I will call Ace... but for now let's enjoy this view..

   It feels so nice

just to walk aimlessly... I felt a hand around my waist.. I grasped, I turned to

the person and saw a masked man with blue eyes.. he grabbed my hand and said,

"relax love, it's be your husband..." he lowered his mask to give me sneak of his

face and then covered his face again. I sigh...

    My eyes filled with

tears, that night when he forced me flashed in front of my eyes. the screams,

the pain, the burn he gave me.... he made me feel disgusting and helpless....

   I said, "even... if... I

die... I will never forgive you, you destroyed my life.... I will never forgive

you..." I was about to walk out but he grabbed my hand and I can sense his

anger.. no!... is he going to torture me again..

   He pulled me

somewhere, I found myself in the car, he threw me in and sat beside me. he

said, "Davis.. drive... take us to Turner's house......" he sat beside me and my eyes

are filled with tears.. is he dropping home, wasn't he angry.

       Suddenly he got

close to me, I was so scared and confused... then I realized he was doing the

seat belt... he sat back and lighted his cigar... he is angry really really angry...

but still he is treating me like this...

   I didn't dare to

look at him for the whole ride, I was scared he will do something to me.. but

he didn't.. the car stopped in front of my house, Ernest said, "go home....

Celeste.." I got down the car as soon as I can.... What was that?.. I really

though he will hurt me in anger... but he dropped me home instead.... I didn't felt

bad by breaking the engagement with Steven, but I feel pain as I rejected

Ernest's apology.... What is wrong with me?