Natalia awoke to find Scarlett sitting at her bedside, eyes red and swollen from crying.
Instinctively, her hand went to her belly, and her face turned deathly pale.
"Where's the baby? And Hamilton?"
Scarlett, who had just managed to stop her tears, began to cry again.
Natalia felt a chill run through her limbs.
"Is it the baby or is it Hamilton?"
Holding Natalia's hand, Scarlett struggled to speak, "Natalia, the baby, the baby..."
She couldn't bring herself to say the word "gone." Despite being a doctor accustomed to life and death, she found herself unable to articulate the loss.
Tears spilled from Natalia's eyes unexpectedly as she stared at Scarlett, then suddenly, she laughed.
"Scarlett, stop joking around. She was just kicking in my belly."
Scarlett sobbed uncontrollably, gripping Natalia's hand even tighter.
The smile froze on Natalia's face, and then, tears began to fall silently.
Scarlett was terrified by her reaction.
"Natalia, if you need to cry, just let it out. Cry loudly, don't hold back. You've just been through childbirth; it's okay to let it out, to scream."
But Natalia remained silent.
Scarlett's heart ached for her.
"Natalia, please, don't do this. I'm begging you, let it out, okay?"
The door to the room opened, and Hamilton entered, ashen-faced in his wheelchair.
Scarlett's tears fell anew.
She didn't know whether to blame Hamilton. He had tried to protect their child, but the cost was too cruel for Natalia.
Yet, it was clear Hamilton had suffered too.
He had to face a future uncertain, to keep the secret of their child growing, to pretend as if their baby never existed, and possibly, to endure Natalia's hatred.
Scarlett said nothing more, instead, she gently wiped away Natalia's tears, "I'll get you something to eat."
Then, she left the room.
Alden wheeled Hamilton closer to the bed before exiting the room as well.
Natalia looked at Hamilton with profound sadness.
"Hamilton, our baby..."
Tears welled up in Hamilton's eyes as he held her hand, his voice trembling, "I'm sorry."
Natalia stared at him, "So, our baby is really gone?"
The sorrow in Hamilton's eyes was palpable. After a moment, he whispered, "I'm sorry."
Those words extinguished all hope for Natalia.
Suddenly, she began to thrash about. "I don't believe it, I need to see my baby. I don't believe it!"
Hamilton, despite the pain in his back, held her tightly in his arms.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Natalia, hit me, yell at me, I'm sorry."
"Let me go! I need to see my baby!" Natalia struggled violently.
But Hamilton refused to let go, even as his back wound reopened and sweat beaded on his forehead.
He wouldn't let go.
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